F*** kids! They ruin your life and steal every penny, time, youth,and freedom you have left! I had two at the age of 27 and thought I was ready but now I wish I could go back in time. I used to be so full of life,  always happy, now I feel like a prisoner in my own home and can't take these little monsters anywhere! No matter how much I teach them and how patient and firm I am with them. My husband feel the same way. We just look at each other and throw our hands in the air. The only time we are. Happy and not arguing is when they go away for the weekend. Complete buyers remorse!

I don't like kids myself.  No a hatred, really, but more of fear.  Most of my friends are having kids now, and I don't know how to behave around them.  I prefer to do adult things, and I drop the F-Bomb all the time, and kids get in the way of that.  I don't want to teach my friends kids any of my bad habits, so I just stay away from them.  There is nothing wrong with you for disliking, or even hating kids.  Don't have them.  It's your choice to make, and you are only responsible for yourself.

i glad for you, i know the feeling :D

Call your dad and go live with him.....but until that...stop feeling sorry about yourself and be a man.

If you are the kind of person that talk a lot and with no use......I understand your boyfriend BUT since you don't like this situation you have 2 chooses:
- brake up with him....in this way he will miss you and will come back to you.....BUT if you choose this you have to be strong and don't give up
 
- shut up.......don't talk to him...do whatever you do, ask some friends to go out, visit your relatives and friends......give him a little space and stop suffocate him. Be absent in his life for some week and live your life not his life
 
Be a strong person and have a strong personality not a puppy!!!

your environment is harsh! pardon me, but 15 is not 51, if you haven't dated by 15, it's no big deal. and it sounds like you have the goods B-) don't worry, that was me before too B-) but don't go with a random person you don't like just so you can "fit in". i am glad you haven't.
 
guys don't like one type of girls, do you think all girls like one type of guy only?> no. keep being who you are and you will find someone who fits you. that's the only way.
 
best of luck, girl!

continue from last comment: but it's the best way to get yourself out of current situation. Go to a college way from home perhaps, experience the world outside. there are so much more and right now you are consumed in anger and grief. It's going to ruin you! You are so much more than that, it's not worth destroying your life over! you still have a chance, this environment you are in is TEMPERATE only, dont' make it a PERMANENT one! you have the power to change your life and help your family, don't give up.

Hey, I am very sorry to hear about your situation, the person you relied on the most is being misled and turned her back on you and you can't control the situation. It's frustrating and heart breaking.
I am not sure if I can help at all, but at least by writing to you you know that someone has heard your story, and can see the pain you are suffering. I read that you are acting out in school, changing your behavior and venting your feelings in a negative way. Yes it's hard to vent feelings in a "positive" way, I hear you. But know that doing what you're doing is only going to make you angrier. e.g. I failed school, great, now my life is even worse, etc. Life has dealt you a harsh one. It's up to you how to cope with it. You are 15, the only way you can change your life, AND have the ability and resources to help you siblings and your mother is to become a capable person in the future. By that, I mean go off to a college, and if you keep doing awful in school that won't happen, and you will end up in a shitty job and feeling even worse, right? Go to college somewhere, if you don't like the environment you are in now, go to a college away from home. College is such an enriching experience. Afterwards, you can find a much better job, and this is the, maybe not the only,

why would he do that? I mean yes you said he wanted you to miss him. But ask him what his philosophy behind it is, does he think it'll make you like him more, improve the relationship or what? It sounds like an pretty excuse for not talking to you. Perhaps ask him what the real reason is. Anyway, whatever it is, I think communication is the only way to solve the problem, opposite of not talking, right?
 
Best of luck!

Life is however you view it and live it. If you see it as a miracle everyday, it will be. Think about how lucky you are, even little things, like being able to swallow food, being able to use your fingers, being able to take a walk when you want to. And know that, you are not alone in your fear. Everyone at some point in their lives wonder what there is to life. Perhaps there is nothing to it. You are put here for an amazing journey, but only once. I have a very close friend who was born with cerebral palsy. But he is the most positive person I know. It was hard to understand why, he couldn't walk, he couldn't talk clearly, he couldn't use his fingers, he needed help from the moment he wakes up to the second he goes to sleep. But he is so motivated, he is getting a degree in English and is aspired to become a professor in Oxford. It really is the effort you put into life, how you choose to live through it is really up to you. If you want change, you are capable of change.

hey people love people who love themselves. You must learn to love yourself, devote yourself to things you love, shape your unique personality. Maybe you like to travel, perhaps rock climbing, whatever it is, once you learn to live with yourself and be comfortable and confidant, you will find that others love you that way too.

Hey Ash, I don't know how my comment will help but I just want to share some of my feelings with you. I am currently in a relationship with someone i really really care about. Yes you may think I should be very happy, yes I am. But at the same time I am terrified of being hurt, it's almost holding me back and making me neurotic. Because once I get attached, I have no idea what to do if things change. But I figured, if you went all out, you knew somehow you were taking a huge risk. You are risking your heart being broken. But does that mean you should hold back your heart from ever loving again? No, because love it worth the hurt. It sounds cliche, but time will heal everything. Perhaps you can try changing your environment, or even routine. But please, believe me, you will love sing and dance and love again. Give yourself time, there are things in life worth the risk. I don't know how long it'll take you to recover, but you will. And when you meet someone else, put your whole heart into it again, love like you've never been hurt. It's better than a life of nothing.