I think you should calm down and relax, cause everything's gonna be all right, you'll see. Or maybe it's alredy ok:)I felt this way at my first job at first day, too,so it's normal. Don't leave them, fight! Sorry for mistakes, my language is Russian. Good luck!

Tangent Alert: If I can't have my dream life of just making money passively from books, I think I belong in a cubicle or somewhere doing isolated work.  I want so badly to be away from the world of teaching and kids...the bad ones just help me realize this...

find another job and leave it.

you are here to serve others. get over it.

It's not so much that I hate kids, although I often say I do.  I just don't get why soooo many people want them.  And why once they have them, they are a "package deal".  I never had to love or want to hang out with my friend's mothers/fathers, sisters/brothers or in most cases, even husbands. I realize kids need constant care, but in most cases there are fathers who can take them for a few hours! But now if I want to keep my friends with children, I have to pretend to adore and enjoy their offspring's company.  And I just can't.
 
People call those of us who don't want children "selfish".  It cracks me up.  Because once you are a parent, you are all about one thing-- YOUR children. Self,friendships,and often even marriages,take a backseat. It may not be YOU but it is all about YOURS. Still sounds kind of selfish to me-- maybe you give unselfishly to your children(because you WANTED to have them), but to the rest of the world you give no more than the other "selfish" people.  
 
I feel like too many people also have kids just for attention.  Because every birth is treated as the next baby Jesus. And everywhere you go, attention is showered upon them. Until the kid turns about 8...then the kid is basically ignored.  And the poor teenagers-- people treat them like they are the scum of the earth. No wonder kids grow up so troubled-- one day they are a king, the next, they are a nobody!
 
I do agree with what one of the commenters said...those of us who don't want kids resist so strongly because we are fighting what society is trying to thrust upon us.  We just don't get it so we go on websites wondering what is wrong with us.  And there are still people telling us that we are selfish jerks, even in a place we are looking for empathy that is so difficult to find.  Are parents' opinions more valuable than ours?  It sure feels like it.

you were a kid once. think about it from that perspective.

some things you just cant fix. You need to show people that although your appearance might not be perfect "in their eyes" you are strong and have the confidence and strength to stand up for yourself. You shouldn't feel bad for yourself. I go through the same things you do.

i geuss jesus is the only one that loves children! and plus dont talk about people that way! thats so rude keep those comments to your self ok! unless its nice god sake!

Well first of all don't worry about what people say just hold your head up high and be confident because it doesn't matter what they say your you and that's that just be happy to start off fresh well good luck

haha - I feel the exact same way you do. I don't want to hate kids - but I just do. I find them repulsive - especially babies sucking on stuff. I think mother nature is starting to create a gene in some of us to stop the overpopulation - evetually is will be in all of us.

Its been 2 months since i posted this story of mine. Thanks everybody who advised me. I am not talking to her since then although she asked about me & tried 2 contact me but i didn't talk much. She asked that we can only be friends if I want, like we used to be but i know nothing will work as she is not the same & she wouldn't be able 2 give me time, but i consented. Things got even worse, we had some huge fights & abused each other cox she seemed to be so happy while i was being sad, this was unbelievable for me. Now im not talking to her & feels that she cheated me. But im not able to forget her, she comes to my dreams very often. I pray that may she comes back with same love.

That's very sweet how you care about your little sister... May God keep you both safe and protect you and your beloved ones.
and keep u healthy ofcourse