Hey, your poem is great. You clearly have a talent for writing!!!
Just wanted to share something with you...I have been seeing a guy for a couple of months and what you have written is...I'm pretty sure, exactly how he feels. I kind of feel like I"m that girl you're writing about. The thing is...I love him so much. He really has no idea, I try to tell him but it's as if he can't believe it, won't trust me. Just as you say in your poem, he is constantly flooded by the past.
 
From the other side though, I had to break up with him last night and I am such a mess right now, it was the last thing in the world I wanted to do but unless he can let go of things and believe in love again and take a chance, I will never have the opportunity to let my smile be his, the glimmer in my eye is for him. I take care to look nice so he will think I'm beautiful...I try to keep my heart soft so he can be safe in it but...my love for him just hasn't been enough. He thinks I am fake.
 
If you have a woman in your life who has a beautiful smile and a genuine glimmer in her eye...maybe it's because she is for real, and maybe she is for you. If you have stuff you need to deal with then...why not face it and start to believe that there are good things in store for your life. Lonely sux, and I truly believe it is better to have loved and lost than to have not loved at all. At least you have "felt" and "experienced". Surely, when the good things come along, the things you have been through in the past will make them even more valuable and special to you..like diamonds.
 
There is always hope and maybe this girl feels like me...all she wants to do is love you, hug you, kiss you and be with you. why not treat her like a princess because if she is anything like me with my guy...she wants to treat you like a king. Go see someone and go talk to this girl and be honest about things, if she has good character...she'll be willing to walk through things "with" you. Maybe you need to apologise....who knows, but please don't let this stuff rip you up and keep you bound when amazing things could be in front of you.
Life can be good and sometimes we are so blinded that we can't see when the greatest gift is being offered before us. Don't give up...:)

Contrary to the popular beliefs here,there is nothing wrong with you. I hate kids too,but it's mostly their parents that I hate. For instance,yesterday there were at least 7 kids in my yard screaming right under my window. I told them to go home and about five minutes later some big redneck hag bangs on my door. She was upset because I told her "wittle pwecious" to go home. The nerve of her! I didn't back down either. I pay a helluva lot of rent to live here and by god I decide who stays on my property and who doesn't. I don't whose little crotch droppings get offended. Stand up to entitlemoos and you'll feel a lot better.

hi, it's such a shame when people come up to you and smear you with their own projected insecurities..you seem kind of young, if you don't mind me saying so, and this is especially difficult to hear those kind of mean things when you are trying to just find out who you are.  You know, what i've learned in my old age is that when a person truly feels ok within herself and the world, then there is no need to put another person down. It's usually those people who feel pretty lousy inside, whether they are aware or not, who will try to bring another person down. The meaning to life involves getting to know who you are and what you stand for. It's finding love for yourself despite what the rest of the world thinks.  Only then, can you learn to love others.  I'm not talking about the conceited type of egotism, either.  I mean loving yourself unconditionally and learning to accept both what is good and not so hot. The best thing you can do is to stand back and take a look at this person with an objective and compassionate point of view...what is driving this person to go up to someone and hurt them with mean words. Why would they say that to someone they hardly even know? It's pretty pathetic.. those who puff themselves up by putting down others.. it's a cry for help. So, brush it off..clean your feelings up and appreciate the fact that you have been given a chance to decide for yourself.  Do you let this person determine who you are or do is that your responsibility?...good luck.

you are only alone right now, dont think about it, move on and find something to keep you busy. I took up extreme sports to get a kick out of life, dont sit around and think about the things you dont have, once you carry on and make it the last thing on your mind, something will eventually pop up and change your life, then you will be happy :-)

The world is full of mean people, the few that care make it all worth it. Its them crying out about their own insecurities, dont take it to heart even though it is hard, stick it through and the one that deserves you will make everything obsolete. you will end up looking back and feel sorry for them, you will be happy, even if it takes some time. Dont look for happiness, it finds you...

I know exactly how you feel. My parents are still together, but my dad doesn't care for me. He always says he loves me but guess what? When I cry he will yell at me and say "stop being an emo little b****"
 
My sister doesn't love me. If I do one little thing wrong he screams at me for being a retard.
 
Yeah you lost 4 friends I know that sucks. But I don't have friends. In class I sit by myself and draw. I don't get invited to parties , I'm not popular. And most people don't like me.
 
Some people like you and me just have a harder time in life early on, most others with have a rough time when they're older. Let's both give it some time. Things will get much better.

psychology, dating, fitness, body language, hell even books about hypnosis!
 
In the end, I kind of figured out that books weren't the answer. The answer was that I just wasn't trying. I would complain and be unhappy, and but I would just sit at home, or go out with male friends and talk about guy stuff...
 
The whole change was that I started approaching girls, having casual conversation and showing genuine interest. With time, I got better and funnier, and now I can say that I'm living happily with my current girlfriend together.
 
In a way, I'm happy for what happened. Because if it didn't - I wouldn't be with her now. I would just stay the same old guy, and try to date as many girls as I can, without even noticing what is really happening...
 
I'm sure you can go the same route dude, just try.
 
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For a change, TRY to actually get a girlfriend.
 
Remember, most guys don't get girlfriends by waiting for them to fall off the sky.
 
They have social circles, they go out, they HIT ON girls - don't be afraid to do this.
 
I'll tell you my story. When I way younger, I was actually doing good with the ladies. Then, all of a sudden that STOPPED. It was like an instant change, and I just couldn't do it anymore.
 
I would go out with the usual friends, to the usual places, and every day and night I would be alone. Months passed and I wasn't with a SINGLE girl.
 
Long story short, I read for weeks articles on (continued)

Maybe we are not meant to be together >.<
Thx anyway haha

Tell her about your feelings, maybe she loves you too just dont shows it. If she loves you -it's cool, if not - let her go - it's just not your person and soon you find yours

Yep. Its official. You're going to Hell. Have fun.

Happiness comes to those who wait =]