I am in general a person who is secure in who I am, but it seems like whenever i post things on interactive sites that allow people to see what I've posted, I keep checking every half hour if its gotten any attention, then I feel totally bummed out if it gets little or none. and I actually feel jealous of people who post random stuff that gets everyones attention. i feel ridiculous feeling this way, the rational part of my brain says "dont be stupid! it doesnt make you less of a person" but...i can't help being mentally taken back to my high school years (which were horrible) where i was virtually invisible and had to jump up and down screaming to get aknowledged, while others could be themselves and everyone naturally gravitated towards them.
 
i can even see what an attention-seeking freak i'm coming off as. *sigh* i've told myself all the logic in the world but i cant stop feeling what i feel. i thought i had fixed the deep issues i had when i was a teen, but i guess not completely.
 
PS no pressure to vote on this!!!