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will i be the same Again...
I am not able to do things the way they should be done.
Well I don’t know will I be able to be in a relationship, be with anyone.
Love anyone the way I loved her.
Or even love someone at all.
There is a familiar feeling that comes to me every time;
I don’t know what to name it.
What I feel is like I lost something that just meant every thing to me.
You see someone who makes you happy, makes you feel alive, something you don’t get too much.
Then you start to see something else that you never saw before;
Dreams that you never dreamt of, you start living a life you never lived before.
It’s like your life takes a turn to the highway, and you feel your life is in motion for the first time of your life, and while it’s running you take it all in, all the feelings, all the happiness that it’s giving to you; and then you come to the bridge of your dreams and it’s the time that you know you want to live it, every bit of it. As you know what’s ahead of you; the city of Life, Joy, Happiness, Love, all the Good things in the world.
And while your life is on the Bridge of Dreams;
the bridge gets collapsed and you start falling, you see debris falling all around you, all your dreams shattered falling with you; falling down in the darkness, you don’t feel the Gravity but still every thing is falling as you see the sky going further away from you while you fall and the darkness engulfs you slowly.......
I loved her too much to ever imagine her being away from me...
and now when she is gone i feel like love is not for me,
i feel like i am becoming a person who doesn't feel anything,
or maybe don't want to feel anything, maybe that's what best for me.
there is no love happiness and so i think its better not to feel anything, that way i will escape the pain...maybe.
i am just trying to live like i used too but it seems impossible,
every thing i love to do reminds me of her...
No matter where i go i cant escape, she is inside me in my heart.
She meant the world to me, and now that world is gone.
What i know is i need to create a new world to live in.
but nothing in that world should remind me of her,
it should be new, different and so i know i cant be same again.
and so it means that i will have to leave all the thing i used do,
all the things i loved to do.
I cant sing,
i cant dance,
i cant dream,
cant love,
ever again.
But even then my heart asks to me,
will i ever be the same again.....
Well I don’t know will I be able to be in a relationship, be with anyone.
Love anyone the way I loved her.
Or even love someone at all.
There is a familiar feeling that comes to me every time;
I don’t know what to name it.
What I feel is like I lost something that just meant every thing to me.
You see someone who makes you happy, makes you feel alive, something you don’t get too much.
Then you start to see something else that you never saw before;
Dreams that you never dreamt of, you start living a life you never lived before.
It’s like your life takes a turn to the highway, and you feel your life is in motion for the first time of your life, and while it’s running you take it all in, all the feelings, all the happiness that it’s giving to you; and then you come to the bridge of your dreams and it’s the time that you know you want to live it, every bit of it. As you know what’s ahead of you; the city of Life, Joy, Happiness, Love, all the Good things in the world.
And while your life is on the Bridge of Dreams;
the bridge gets collapsed and you start falling, you see debris falling all around you, all your dreams shattered falling with you; falling down in the darkness, you don’t feel the Gravity but still every thing is falling as you see the sky going further away from you while you fall and the darkness engulfs you slowly.......
I loved her too much to ever imagine her being away from me...
and now when she is gone i feel like love is not for me,
i feel like i am becoming a person who doesn't feel anything,
or maybe don't want to feel anything, maybe that's what best for me.
there is no love happiness and so i think its better not to feel anything, that way i will escape the pain...maybe.
i am just trying to live like i used too but it seems impossible,
every thing i love to do reminds me of her...
No matter where i go i cant escape, she is inside me in my heart.
She meant the world to me, and now that world is gone.
What i know is i need to create a new world to live in.
but nothing in that world should remind me of her,
it should be new, different and so i know i cant be same again.
and so it means that i will have to leave all the thing i used do,
all the things i loved to do.
I cant sing,
i cant dance,
i cant dream,
cant love,
ever again.
But even then my heart asks to me,
will i ever be the same again.....
(5 month ago)
can any one help me...Please.
(4 month ago)
Hey Ash, I don't know how my comment will help but I just want to share some of my feelings with you. I am currently in a relationship with someone i really really care about. Yes you may think I should be very happy, yes I am. But at the same time I am terrified of being hurt, it's almost holding me back and making me neurotic. Because once I get attached, I have no idea what to do if things change. But I figured, if you went all out, you knew somehow you were taking a huge risk. You are risking your heart being broken. But does that mean you should hold back your heart from ever loving again? No, because love it worth the hurt. It sounds cliche, but time will heal everything. Perhaps you can try changing your environment, or even routine. But please, believe me, you will love sing and dance and love again. Give yourself time, there are things in life worth the risk. I don't know how long it'll take you to recover, but you will. And when you meet someone else, put your whole heart into it again, love like you've never been hurt. It's better than a life of nothing.
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