I'm very glad to have come across this site as i feel i need to let my feelings out. I guess most people when they see me would say i'm an extrovert and i am generally outgoing with people i know and am loud around my friends. But I've been looking at myself recently and I've realised how I keep my feelings in. I don't really tell anyone stuff, not even my twin sister. She can talk for hours whereas I prefer to mull things over inside my head. I find it hard to talk to people about stuff because I get embarassed about my own feelings.
 
I worry sometimes. Not that often..just sometimes. I worry that my life isn't going to turn out as great as I expect, I worry I may go to university but then get stuck in some boring job I don't want to do. But i shouldn't worry, I'm a Christian, I believe in God, but sometimes I can't help it. Sometimes I really wonder whats life all about, what if God isn't real? I know I am a Christian and I shouldn't doubt, I mean thats whats faiths all about. But I'm still young, I have a lot of questions but I doubt anyone really has the answer other than God.
 
The last couple of days I've been in a bad mood. I think its because I haven't had any proper time to myself. I've been doing stuff with friends most nights and in the day I'm always with my twin and I know she's my twin and my best friend but sometimes I just need a break. Thats what I mean about being an introvert. I love having time to myself and I don't like doing stuff with my friends every night, not because i don't like them, its just because I like to relax on my own or just with my twin. There's no pressure with her, I can just sit in silence...although she's a complete chatterbox, but I don't have to put effort in to be around her (sounds bad but i don't mean it in a bad way) its like I can be totally natural.
 
Pheeeeeewwww. I feel a lot better. I know its a bit nonsensical but it made me feel better.