I feel so alone,like..there's no one to understand me,all though i'm surrounded by people i feel so bad,like i want to scream. i feel like crap.  I feel like people prefer to always take sides for everyone else but me, like i'm always the bad one just because i defend myself, i mean.. is that bad ? to defend myself ? I'm just tired, my life is unstable right now. Things are not that good,and you know what's worse? when you can't cry, cause there's always people watching.. And you just have to hold back your tears,you seem like you're good,but you aren't. you have to hold back all your pain, i feel like CRAP. I don't know what to do or what to say. i wish i had a car,so i could go to the beach and walk,go for a long walk.. just be alone and quite. think think and think. I feel like i'm always the one people look for when they want to get all their anger out or something. and.. I always defend myself,that's me. I have a really strong temper. I treat people how i like to be treated. THAT'S JUST ME. i can't respect someone who doesn't respect me. I just can't.