Hi Im Noah & I'm living in a small town in Nebraska where people do not like me because they think I'm weird because I walk around alot and have no life. I'm 20 and i have a job but I live my life in my apartment. I have Never had a girlfriend in about 10 years. I think I'm the ugliest guy in the world because I have acne and cold sores on my mouth that won't go away. I'm willing to say that I'm bisexual, but I'm always putting myself down because I always try to look as feminine as possible and girly looking. I always wanted to be a girl. I'm ashamed of being a very ugly man that never gets girlfriends or even has girls look at me. I try committing suicide about a couple times per week due to my uglyness, but i always turn it down at the last second because i have atleast a dollar in my pocket. I feel surrounded in a small town where nobody likes me but i can't move. I have money. A big portion of it. But I never get access to any of it. I can't move because I can't get any good references from my landlord because I have plumbing issues. I'm a very sweet kid but nobody even notices that. I go into the mall alone and nobody looks at me because of my uglyness. Honestly right now I feel like dieing. I need some feedback, not some mental help because i already been to the hospital six times in the past 3 months. To me I might as well be dead because women do not like mentally guys that's because there's more women in this world than men. I have a payee that hardly gives me any money. I get paid once a month, that's it and that's all that's keeping me happy and he won't even let me get a car and I'm 20 and women think guys are losers who don't have cars. I feel hated by everyone, everywhere i go and honestly if I had no acne and I had to cole sores by my mouth I would be good-looking or if i got a sex change. I feel lost and I'm going crazy. Please help someone.