I'm a freshman in college. And I'm a member of the women's basketball team. I love basketball and I love my team but I'm starting to feel like I don't belong here. I want to be the best. I know I'm good. And I try to keep reminding myself that. But I just feel like I'm not actually IN yet. Workouts are so hard and I feel so behind. I miss my family and friends like crazy and that's not making things any better. I don't even want to think about how I'm gonna feel when the actual school year starts.
 
I don't know if I just feel this way because I'm homesick, or because I don't have anyone to talk to about it, or because I'm scared of this level of... LIFE, or even if this is perfectly normal.
 
I just want to be happy....